Dream Demolition

there are more then a few sad things in this world.  so before i get into what i have to say, i do not feel any negative feelings towards anyone.  there are a few influences in my life that makes me come to this conclusion of "Dream Demolition"...

Dreams

there is something about having dreams that make my life great!  i love to explore this life. sometimes its even just up in my head wishing i could be something or do something in this dull life of mine. hahah  :)  i know my life is not dull but that is why i love it.  i have to keep my self entertained.   and so maybe half of my dreams i tell people are not going to come true this year or next or even in this life time, but i promise it will happen!  there is one thing i know about myself... if i want something bad enough, i can get it.  thats what makes dreams so great right?:)  but what i think gets confusing is when my dreams and other peoples dreams are not the same.   

Demolition

what makes some one think that it is ok to demolish some one else's dreams?  i have found in my life of dreaming, there is always someone that will try and tear you down and make you think that it will never happen.  and some times it is every one that wants to tears it down, even your closest friends and family.  and oddly enough the people that you love the most can demolish you the most.  not because they want to hurt me at any angle, but it is because i respect the words of my closest loved ones.  but i just have to just keep dreaming for myself and maybe someday i will stop telling people my close dreams because of the demolition i will get after...  that will be a sad day.

Tongue Drum

like my last post i feel the need to create music.  this is a tool i would like to use to build.  just listen to the sound of this beautiful drum.  i almost feel like it is something out of this world, something from above telling us to get together and create something.

inspiration!!

i am wondering...  if i could create something what would it be.  would it be a massive building, or a beautifully cooked dinner? i still don't really exactly know what i would like to build... i guess one thing i know i would like to build is a better society.  but that is something built that will take more than me, i will work on that though i wont give up.

one thing i want to create is music!  i want to be a musician,  i want to create beautiful music that fills the soul!  like this guy!

Imprisoned

i realized something today...  i am so trapped.  every thing that i own i do nothing to produce it.  i get this false realization that i produced it because i went to a 8 dollar per hour job and i use that money to buy the products that i own. this is such a trap.  what would happen if we went to war... and all hell broke loose.  lets say there was no more trade from country to country, or state to state, or even from store to store.  i cant even imagine or come up with the possibilities that the future will bring us.  this life is a sleeping bear, some days that bear wakes up and reeks havoc.  i know this might sound crazy.  but i even rely on food.  my life source, the very thing that keeps me alive, i trust someone else to produce it for me. the way that i have lived my life i have put myself into a very trapped situation, mygoal is to step out of this jail.  no one is holding me in this jail, the bars on my jail are only my ignorance of the future.  

Valentines Day!

there are two words i can say about this day...
hahaha "Very good" hahaha

really

 though this day was very good.  i dont think i have been this happy in awhile i got to spend valentines day with the girl i care  for so much.  we had thai food and tried to paint... 

hahaha  try is the key word. (we are not very good;)

my sister let us use here house. she is such a sweet heart.  thanks again jenny you are so nice to your little brother.

another day with my dog

this was a crazy day!  i tried to go to sundance to go skiing but when i got there they turned me away because the parking lot was full hahah

i guess that this has been happining every weekend.  its kinda crazy. so i drove up to the nordic center and they were having women's day so there was no parking there either.  then i drove up to alpine loop and a ranger came and told me i need to pay the three dollars to park there... i have never payed that... EVER all my life.

but i was just going to go for a hike but i found my skins in my car so i went skinning but not thinking to even go off the snow mobile trail but i did and hiked pretty high up. but the thing was i was not prepared for a long hike i didnt have a coat i didnt have pants or gloves all i had was my long underwear on and my ukulele.  so when i got up there i was freezing and skiing i know i was going to fall at least once (i suck at telemarking) and to top it off my dog was being crazy

morning hike

this was a awesome hike... i really think i enjoy going up more then i like going down... but on this hike on our way down i think i hit like 30 bushes...  it was crazy

no shoes

i used to feel bad that i had no shoes until i saw a man with no feet...

Good Morning Remmy

there was this crazy day that happened one time...  i came home from a crazy night up at a cabin to find my dog had shit all over my room... i asked one of my roomates to watch him for me for one night and i guess he had shat all over his kennal and he let him out of the kennel in my room...  so i had to scrub the walls and wash everything in my room.. crazy dog i guess thats what you get being a dad.  hahaha  but the next morning was great... so nice with my doggy