Jam Session

there are a few days when you can say that you jammed out with your favorite people. and today was one of those days. i played the ukulele and the guitar, Ali played the banjo and the guitar, mark played the harmonica and the guitar!!! it was pretty much amazing

i wish that could happen more often

Dog Skinning

i slept in today it has been my vacation this weekend.  but i went up north fork in AF canyon and put on my skies and my skins and took my pup. it was so good i was shocked how good remmy did running down while i was skiing.  kinda crazy i had to stop a little bit but not bad at all.  even through the powder he was just running behind me.  i am so mad at myself though i didnt bring my camera so sorry there are no pictures of that...  i might be going tomorrow befor work too if i have work at four and if the avalanche danger is not bad.   

School

figuring out what's wrong

so this is my second blog of the day... but its not just because i am bored and like to type hahah actually there are some not so good things going on in my head i am really questioning things that i am doing now.  today i have not been happy  i thought that running with my dog this morning would help out the rest of the day but it actually made things worse you know... i am feeling really pointless in my life now.  well not really pointless because i know that i am a awesome person and i have a ton of potential but sometimes i dont think people see it.  or some one i guess...  hahaha (oh Bouy)...  the thing is i am fine with that but for some reason i am not happy today... when i am typing i feel better so this blog might be kinda long.  when you like someone and you know it wont work out you kinda want to take them away from your life but its scary to do it.  its like taking something away from your life.  how would it feel to take even a thought away from your mind?  thats a scary thought.  what if someone could take a memory away from you?  i would hold my memories so close and make sure i would not loose them to someone else.  this life is so funny like that.  and what memories are more important then others.  i can think of a few memories that i would not mind to forget. hahah or to be taken away.  but would that help?  (in my life) i can see how some things like war and evil things children have seen and even adults it would be helpful to take that away because there mind is not ready for what they saw. that actually opens up another blog someday hahah when is your mind ready?  well you know this is more helpful then  thought to just type what i am thinking.   but to conclude on what im trying to say is....

Conclusion-

life is important. it is lonely at times and full of friends in other times.  but with every thing you do remember that it is important you keep your memories even if you have to say goodbye to friends or people you care about.  you will keep memories:)  if you dont loose them somewhere up in that crazy brain tissue in your head behind your perspective.

Running

i am starting to run with my pup remmy now but today i realized something.  well actually i realized a couple of things.1) when i am running i like to run in the cold. it makes winter so much more beautiful.  this winter is really beautiful though, there is always snow on the ground.  seems like thats how winter should be but it has not been like that for the past 3 or 4 years or more it seems like.   2) i need to buy new shoes.  i forgot how bad my arches in my feet hurt if i dont support them when i run.  its crazy because it makes me feel human when not everything in my like is perfect.  well physically any way.  

RANDOM THOUGHTS

sometimes i like to just sit back and do nothing hahah but for the most part if i dont do things or have a purpose for waking up then my day does not go good... but i dont know where i am going with that whole comment but i just feel like typing right now :)  some one once said that calming music or singing is needed for a horse with alot of spirit to run.  and if thats true... i have alot of spirit to run.  and in a way thats true if i could just run away from all of my problems i think i would EVERRRY DAY hahah but i know that i would not grow if i did that... i have been thinking... sometimes you have to give up things you love for some other things you love.  and i think i would give up my whole life for alot of things.  to me nothing is really important in my life... if that makes sense.  any time of the day i could give my life for someone that needs it.  who ever is reading this if you need anything i will give up whatever it takes to help you get it or accomplish it.  because if you are reading it you are my friend hahaha so i can honestly say i am here.  there is some lyrics that i enjoy that some one wrote.  "if you want to burn your self remember that I LOVE YOU... and if you want to cut your self remember that I LOVE YOU... and if you want to kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU... Call me befor your dead, we can make some plans instead, send me an IM i'll be your friend. "  and you know those are kinda weird but so true in my case dont any one ever think nobody is there for them because I AM!!!   remember that I LOVE YOU

WINTER DAY

so sometimes i feel like im in a movie...  i woke up this morning and my dog remmy wakes me up every day hahahah i keep him in his kennel and when he has to go potty he scratches at it...  (i will have to do something about that)  any way so i get up like that most days and take him to the backyard, he always waits at he top of the stairs for me to get to the bottom and i have to call him down hahah so funny.  and you know after you get up when your tired it feels like you are in heaven when  you get back into your bed?  not only are you tired but there is this aroma in your room of sleep and your blankets are so warm from the warm sleep that you were doing befor... so now i am in my room sitting in my bed watching the snow fall.  it is 9 30 now and i need to be at work at ten... i know i am going to be late but is it worth feeling alive to be late for a dead end job serving at Applebee's?  i think i will just be late if that sounds alright?  remember that life is better then just one thing life is full of things to love and sometimes you need to take time for little things like listen to the snow fall.

Aristotle

so i was reading today about friendship written by aristotle!  there are three types of friendship...  one type is friendship just for pleasure, another is that friendship is only there for personal benefit (the idea of "may come in handy some day"), and then there is friendship that the outcome of the friend has nothing to do with yourself, when you give to this friend, there is no reason to give but only from the goodness of your heart. 

so this is what i got from something Aristotle wrote.  

And why i am writing about this is i dont really know if i am a good friend.  but i hope to be one day.  i want to be a good person from the bottom of my heart.  and i guess starting as a good friend works right?  

Rafting

this was summer 2008 going down cat canyon.  

MY NEW BLOG

hey every one i am just at school right now and thought i would start a blog...  

i have been learning alot of things and want to write them down somewhere

i will be posting soon